So I'm finally updating! It's really been forever, huh? I'll write more often I promise as always, right?

So I'm at college now, which seems crazy to say... but yeah. It's really good I guess, funny how I don't really know what to say about it... My roommates are really cool. My classes are pretty hard but not too terrible (yet) and luckily French is pretty easy (but at freaking 8:00 every damn morning, ew) and Psych is really interesting (but goes really fast and I'm already kinda behind on the reading) and Stats I have a pretty cute professor (he's really young, like 27 I think... so funny if you know my history with math teachers, ha... but he's too short anyway) and Seminar is so cool - it's on American roots music/blues which therefore = cute freshmen boys who (...um, wish they could...) play guitar! And...

There's one especially incredibly hot guy in the class (which I had for the first time this morning) & he sat next to me! Hell yes so I actually talked to him too, which isn't really typical for me but I had to basically 'cause I need to meet new boys here! So I offered him some gum (which he took) and asked if he played guitar (which he does) and we had a nice little conversation during our 5 min break !! It was really cool, he's from San Diego too and seemed pretty nice and everything, so we'll see I guess! But the thing is, he's not my usual type of John Mayer/Adam Brody lanky, dark haired, sorta quiet awkward/dorkyish cute... he's more SoCal, surfer-ish, Abercrombie, I guess conventionally hot. Which is definitely fine with me, ha... but yeah he might just be too cool for me or something, I don't really know him well enough yet. But I'm gonna keep trying to sit next to him & talk & make him come over and play me guitar (haha)

So I miss Jerry alot. I think I'm going to write him a short letter just to tell him about my math prof (his replacement, ha) and Blues class or something.

You know what's hard? It seems like everyone has a best friend somewhere else... back home... and I know I should just focus on making new friends, which I am and everything, but it's just like, almost incredibly sad sometimes when your roommate gets a card from her best friend saying how much she misses her, etc... I don't know, I guess I just want a best friend. As always, right? That's so, so hard to do though, especially now when I'm like 18 and everybody has had their best friend since like 6th grade or something, you know? Ugh... it's just that you think you want to completely break free from like, high school, which I do of course but at the same time, everything here is brand new & it's not good enough yet... I don't know if that makes sense, but whatever.

Yeah so basically if anyone wants a best friend... position's open I guess... sad. Oh well, what can you do?

Well on that kinda note I have to get off right? Eh. I should go call home & shower & study Psych anyway. More updates, promise.

"And color the coast with your smile
It's the most genuine thing
That I've ever seen
I was so lost
But now I believe
In the coast

Your smile is the most genuine thing
That I've ever seen
I was so lost
But now I believe
And I believe
Now I believe..."

- Dashboard Confessional "Carry This Picture" A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar