Spring Break is almost over :( It's been soo busy, I feel like I haven't been able to like... savor it or something. But no, I've had alot of fun, it just goes by so quickly! And it's funny 'cause I'm basically done with school at this point... I'm like, whyyy bother anymore? I know I'm going to college, what is the point of working hard in high school now? I know there's an obvious answer to that... I just don't have much HS motivation left in me! ;)

So monday I went up to see UC__ w/ my dad. It was good, I liked the campus and everything, but I don't know... Then on tuesday I went up to ______ to visit my sister Rachel and see UC__, and basically... I think that's where I'm gonna end up. It's funny because I've been there before, seen the campus a couple times already, but just being able to see UC__ & UC__ back to back like that, and to be there without my parents...

I don't know, it's just soo pretty and such a nice place. Right on the beach. And I would feel kinda dumb deciding to go to the campus with no beach, worse weather, country-ish living, and not much else (esp. if you don't have a car) to do... instead of this gorgeous beach campus, totally nice and upscale community, lots of shopping, my sister (& her car, lol), and ___ a couple hours away... It just seems like if I don't have another really good reason to go to UC__, then why..?

I mean the only thing is the people, and yeah I'm a little wary of the party rep & maybe snobby/vain/insanely good looking etc. kinda people who would be attracted to that school. And that's why I'm only like 90% sure @ this point. But it's a stereotype anyway, and my sister was saying how that's not a good enough reason 'cause there are mean and nice people and partiers and nerds and everything in between people everywhere, and it's not like there aren't weird people in _____, right?

Yeahhhh I just don't know!!

Anyway... then on wednesday my grandma arrived, which is cool, she'll be here till next weekend. But I've been freaking working like every damn day... I HATE IT! I seriously hate my job... and my f.ing bosses too. Yeah it's like I want to get fired so I don't have to give my two weeks notice. lol. But then I'm like... I should stick it out a little more... but I'm pissed b/c I want (need, in my case) to go shopping, and I haven't been able to 'cause I always have to work in the middle of the day and there's not enough time to go before work and there's sooo much traffic after work. RRrrrr.

Well the closer mall is open until 9:00 tonight, so, maybe I'll do that. I need to go to Nordstrom. And Abercrombie. And I know that's pathetic, but.. well maybe I am too.

Fuck. I have to go to work. :( Oh it's not that bad.

Yes it is.

I know it's early
And you hardly even know me but
I want your love so bad
So bad I'm bout to fuck it up

Could you tell me what to say?

You must have heard that line
About your eyes a million times
And now you're holding out to hear about your chin
I bet that that could get me in, let me in...

When you were young and playing princess
in your mothers dress
Into the mirror, dreaming what your prince would say.
I know you still remember to this day...

And sure it's unfair
I might lose all self-respect
those who say I should be myself
they have obviously never met you yet

So I can tell by the way your eyes roll
The way you stab the ice in your glass that its over
I see you signaling to a friend, whispering "make this end"

You should have told me what to say,
Told me what to say...

- John Mayer "Tell Me What to Say"

<333 oh how I love this song. And I got orchestra section tickets for Jul. 18th!!