Sorry I haven't written in awhile... just been kinda busy and didn't really want to talk about how I haven't been doing so great lately (dieting that is). But I weighed myself this morning and I was 157.5, which doesn't make sense, but whatever, I'll take it!

So tomorrow is senior ditch day. I think I'm just going to go to school anyway. I know, I'm crazy, but it just seems so freaking lame to me... lol. That's probably because my friends are all into it. Whatever... I'm not going to have my mom call me in sick so I can do nothing all day and pretend like I'm pulling something off, you know? Maybe if it was sunny and 85 out, then I'd go to the beach or something, but it's like all gloomy and cold. I think it's just sooo high school that I'm over it, I think? Such a follwer thing. I don't know.

Anyway. John Mayer this summer! Finally my <33love will be in San Diego again, haha. I'm such a dork, I actually joined the fan club so I could get better tickets. That better work, damn it. I got DMB tickets too (for August). This is going to be my summer ritual for as long as my boys keep touring :)

There are only like 2½ months of school left. That's really weird for me... I haven't completely decided which school yet, but... yeah ______ is looking pretty likely right now. Eeee. I want to love it. I'm going to visit it in a week or so, and, yeah. I really do. But I can't do that right now or else I'll be let down or something else I don't know. Damn it is far away though.

Yeah I'm getting a bit sick of my friends again. But I finally saw Brenna the other day! We had lunch together... she's so my favorite. I can tell her everything. I love that. I can even talk about Kelsie, and Bren's the only one who totally understands (& notices) how they sometimes are to me. And she feels the same way about high school, like she wants to completely break free next year too... <33 Brenna ;)

Been listening to new John Mayer stuff... and I'm in love. Really getting into this guy too...

"Writing letters, only to keep them in my head.
Chasing my mind around, building arguments.
And it would be easier if you were here to defend,
But I remind myself that that won’t happen...

And I know that time heals all things,
But I feel like time kills all things bad about you.
And could it really have been me who said so proudly,
That I’d be better off without you?...

And I know you’re not perfect, but I built you up that way.
And I know it’s been a year, but I can’t take another day.
And it would be easier if you were here to defend,
But as it stands, I’m just left with an image of perfection.
An image of perfection.
An image of perfection, whenever I close my eyes.
An image of perfection, and it gets me by..."

- Ryan Montbleau "Just Perfect" Begin

wow could that be more right on? change 'a year' to '4 years' and it's totally jerry for me. huh.