So things are going okay. I haven't been counting points... I wasn't eating very well for a few days, I just kinda gradually fell out of the dieting thing. But I've been good the past couple days atleast. And I had dance (pretty hardcore too) yesterday and I did my 1hr pilates DVD today.

I think I probably gained back the freaking 3 lbs I had lost last week. Um. That just seems so ridiculous to me! I know I should be happy with any loss, but, seriously. It just seems so lame to count every little point like a maniac and be so good and exercise all the time for 3 little lbs. I mean 3 lbs could be a fluctuation in the scale, you know? Water weight even. How would I know? Atleast in the first week, after eating horribly for a long time, I need more than that. I don't know.

It probably had something to do with getting my period. I know that affects it but how? Oh it doesn't matter anyway.

So the funny thing is, lately atleast, I've actually been finding myself more like, naturally inclined to eat better and exercise. I really don't want to binge at all. And I was actually looking forward to doing the pilates DVD today. This is good. I'm just trying to make this my normal thing... like everyday I try to eat less and exercise by instinct or because I want to, not because I'm forcing myself to. I really hope this works out.

John Mayer summer tourdates are coming out soon!!!! You have no idea how thrilled I am. Cross your fingers for San Diego anytime and New York in July. Last summer the concert was basically amazing. He's unbelieveable live... And don't get me wrong, I <33 Dave to death, but the JM crowd is so much better. Younger (= hotter guys) (AND guys who like John Mayer music, *swoon*), less hippie-ish/weird dancing, and oh yeah alot less pot...

So I got a job... just basically a weekend thing. It's at this place where they have a bunch of those big inflatable jumping things (fun, right?!) and kids have birthday parties there and stuff and I just greet/supervise. I don't start for a week and a half, but, hey. It's $7/hr (that's right, .25 over min. wage, lol) + tips (kinda excited about that). I figure I'm on my feet atleast, it's a little more active/entertaining than a desk sort of job or whatever. Shouldn't be too unbearable I guess. I already tutor french 3x a week ($10/hr) so I don't have very flexible weekdays, and I don't need to be making tons of money, just trying to save some for college or whatever... I hope it's okay.

"Into your heart I'll beat again...
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock
and sweet you roll
Lost for you, I'm so lost for you...
Touch your lips just so that I know
In your eyes, love, it glows
So I'm bare boned and crazy for you
When you come crash into me, baby
And I come into you
In a boys dream...
I'm holding you so girl,
close to me..."

- Dave Matthews Band "Crash Into Me" Crash