Exercise: Pilates DVD (1 hr)

Didn't really count the points today, but I've been really good, so I think it's fine. And yesterday I counted but didn't have a chance to write it down... I think it was something like 21 tho, so I'm definitely sticking to this.

Oh my goodness, so surprised I actually got through the Pilates DVD today. I got home from school @ like 11:30 & I wasn't even going to bother with it (just got my period, cramps + pilates soreness = not fun!) but then I took a nap (like 2½ hrs, lol) and watched Ellen (haha.. <3 that show) and decided to just get it done. And it wasn't too bad, I'm really glad I made that call. My stomach actually feels alot better right now, but I'm sure it'll be sore as hell tomorrow. But that's a good thing for me, cramps are definitely the worst, but I like the soreness for some reason. I guess it makes me feel like the exercise is actually doing something.

Anyway, I gotta say I'm a little disappointed w/ the weightloss rate. I was 158.0 yesterday but I think it was up to 159ish today, which makes no sense at all! I don't know if I even trust that scale though. Ugh. It's just a pain 'cause the last time I was dieting @ this level I think I lost like 5 lbs the first week. I know I shouldn't but I'll be really disappointed if I don't lose that much this time. I've been almost perfect w/ the dieting all week and last time I wasn't doing Pilates. So. But we'll see... I'm not allowed to get disappointed until Monday morning I guess.

Still torn between UC__ & UC__. Oh and Lauren and Michele are both being so freaking annoying about it. I hate it soo much when people talk crap about something you're considering... Lauren constantly dissing UC__ and UC__, praising ___, like she has any idea! None of us know anything more than reputations, it's all total stereotypes and judgements you know? I hate it when people act like they're the authorities on something they don't know anymore about than the next person. I don't think Lauren's even ever been to UC__ or UC__! Lord. And Michele saying how "campy," etc. ___ is... also don't think she's ever been there. What the hell? Why did you guys even apply to these schools if you're so convinced they're that bad? I would never say crap like that... although I could... The stereotype of Michele's 1st choice is a private school w/ spoiled & snobby rich kids where the girls are all in sororities and wear heels & Louis Vuitton purses to class everyday. (lol not that I wouldn't love to have a LV purse or anything, I'm just saying).

Hmmm that's funny. My high school is alot like that too. I guess I do fall into it sometimes though. But that's more 'cause I love fashion and shopping, not 'cause I'm trying to compete and be better than everyone. Whatever.

So I don't really know what my point was there, but I guess I just don't want their self-guided input anymore. We're all way different people and want way different things from our schools, so, ahh just stop. Anyway.

How do you get more depth to a friendship? I can't figure it out. I don't know.

"This not goodbye she said
It is just time for me to rest my head
She does not walk she runs instead
Down these jagged streets and into my bed
Fumbling through your dresser drawer
Forgot what I was looking for
Try to guide me in the right direction
Making use of all this time
Keeping everything inside
Close my eyes and listen to you cry."
- Maroon5 "Must Get Out" Songs About Jane