It is so nice out today. I feel like I should go do something, but I don't know what there is! I'm going to a baseball game later (college)... maybe we'll go early & I can just hang out downtown (shopping everywhere! And the only Urban Outfitters in SD! Such my weakness.) We just got a new ballpark (opened a couple days ago), so we're going to check it out & watch Nebraska play, but it's an all day ticket so, idk. I would go to the beach, but... it's probably crazy and there's not enough time. Oh well, I'll do that later :) Hopefully the weather stays like this..

Things are really good (still)! Last night I went out w/ Kelsie, we went to next town(?) over, a bit more city-like than our little suburbs, and saw a movie ("Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen"... yes, I swear we're 17; no, it wasn't very good, kinda cute tho) and had dinner at this reallllly good nice italian place. It was so much fun, I have seriously never laughed so much in my life. I'm so glad we talked & we're doing stuff again. :)

Hmmm... oh guess what? I didn't get into UCLA (as predicted). I'm okay with it, I didn't really expect to. A little bummed I won't be living in LA, but what can you do? Kelsie didn't get in either... Which sucks, 'cause I think she thought she might. Her grades & SATs are a little better than mine, so I can see why. She came over after she checked & she said she was fine, but her eyes looked like she had been crying :( I felt so bad... but I don't think she wants to dwell on it. And I think our dinner/movie helped! I hope.

UC__ posts tomorrow & UC__ on tuesday. : nervous.

But anyway... oh my gosh I have been working on Kelsie's birthday present (a scrapbook of us) and I'm like, freaking out. I haven't actually started the pages yet... it's sooo intimidating! I've been looking at this website: http://twopeasinabucket.com and I swear it is the cutest thing ever! I've been looking at the gallery for like hours at a time (people post the "layouts" they've made & comment on them)... some of them are amazing. It's really inspiring though. I'm definitely going to start my own scrapbook after I finish Kelsie's - maybe start with HS graduation & just keep going. I know it's lame, but I get all excited about it! lol. I'm not good @ all these decisions tho (like which papers & stuff), and it's so expensive. At Michaels it's like $1 a page for patterned paper, but they're not very cute so I want to go to a scrapbook-only store, but I'm afraid it's going to be even more! Ahh. Oh well, what can you do? It's going to be fun. And it'll give me something to do besides eating!

Speaking of eating... I'm really going to get back on track & start this 2 week "jump start" thing tomorrow. My mom's friend gave it to her, I think it's Weight Watchers. And I'll need to be exercising too, dance or pilates. My first goal is to be at 145 by spring break (4/12), which would be about 13 lbs in a month. This is based on my evil scale, by the way. My mom's is much nicer, & I don't know which is more accurate, but I guess it doesn't really matter.

I think I am going to make a little chart on posterboard or something & hang it up on my door & keep track of my progress. Like the # of points I ate & how much exercise & like my weight each monday and all that. I will also start keeping track of that here again. I'm still gonna talk about my life, but I will also go back to what I started this diary out to be. My points counting, exercise, etc.

"There’s an emptiness inside her
And she’d do anything to fill it in
And though it’s red blood bleeding from her now
It’s more like cold blue ice in her heart
She feels like kicking out all the windows
And setting fire to this life
She could change everything about her
Using colors bold and bright
But all the colors mix together
To grey
And it breaks her heart
It breaks her heart
To grey..."

- Dave Matthews Band "Grey Street" Busted Stuff

<33 this song is about trying to break free & change your life... a def. theme for me right now :)