Happy Valentine's Day... I really wasn't planning on getting sad today. But it couldn't be gloomier outside, and it looks like it's going to rain, and basically I think that's the most romantic thing ever. I can just imagine the couples tonight, going out to dinner, he gives her his coat, they're walking to the car and then they just start kissing in the rain...

It's fine though, I'll be fine. I didn't exactly follow through with my diet/exercise thing either. I did really good all the way to Wed. and then, yeah it just turned into whatever as it usually does. I don't know what to do I don't know what to do.

I had a wonderful talk with Jerry (the unrequited love of my life) yesterday. It's so funny because occasionally I'll start wondering why I love him so much and how maybe he really isn't all that perfect for me, and then like the next day something will happen with us and I'm like "oh yeah, wait a sec, still love you forever." It's okay though, 'cause I feel like for some reason it's fine if I do. It's not like I think anything's ever going to happen between us, so. He's just my <33.

I don't know what I'm going to do today... I don't really want to sit at home and wallow or anything, but what the hell else is there to do alone on Valentine's Day?! ;)

"We're pushing on
We're passing through
And it wont be long
Till I walk with you
Tonight I'm down
I'm inside out
Staring at the pictures in the album you forgot about

Round and round
I can't believe my heart has waited this long
All along, we've been children in a cold world
Where wonder was lost, every day
And if love was a compass
Oh, I've lost my way..."

- John Mayer "Lifelines"