So the Grammy's were so good, huh? I <3ed them actually... the Beyonce and Prince thing was great (And could Beyonce be more gorgeous? No I think not), of course my Dave (Matthews) & Sting Beatles trib, and Justin freaking owned... I thought he was amazing. My John (Mayer) in his pink tie! Love love love. So funny, a couple days ago I was saying how I thought it was really hot when a guy wears like a pink shirt or something, just 'cause it's different and shows they're like secure w/ themselves or something. Either that or they're gay. And we all know how in love I am with Will (as in & Grace), so. Ha. But something about it really does it for me I guess ;)... and Justin was wearing a pink shirt too. *sigh*

And the John Mayer/Matthew Perry thing was so funny... "John I'm so glad you finally told everyone that my body is a wonderland" "I didn't write that song about you" "Yes you did" "No, I didn't" ... "We're a duo, but we just broke up due to musical differences" "Yeah, I realized that John is musical, and I'm not" etc. cute!

So Winter Ball is finally over, yay. I talked to Kelsie about it yesterday and it didn't seem like she really had that much fun. She said it was okay, she'd just so much rather go with someone she actually liked and so on. It seemed like she thought it wasn't really worth all the trouble, so I guess I'm for sure fine that I didn't go, but I wish it would've been a little better for her! Oh well.

I just so hope I can go to the Prom. Like I don't know how I'm going to ever be okay with not going... I hate putting so much emphasis on it, but it's my Senior Prom, that's such a major thing you know? I don't know... it's on May 22nd, so I have a couple months I guess.

I'm actually really trying hard now. Today is like day one, and I've been doing good w/ the eating so far and I did 20 min Pilates + I have dance (1 hour) later. I just have to really keep with it this time, and I will, I know I will. I absolutely have to lose the weight this time... I'm getting so unhealthy and it's not helping anything. I'm also going to try and work out about 6x a week, Pilates everyday and then either running or dance for cardio. I basically just need to up the odds of getting a guy.

I'm just going to try and lose 20 lbs. for now. I'll probably have 5-10 more after that, but 20 is much less intimidating than 30 for some reason. It'll make a big difference, too. Hopefully I can get it done in a couple months, sometime in April.

"I asked Sting and Vince if they chose not to sing 'she was just seventeen' [from "I Saw Her Standing There"]. It sounds okay if you're 22. But if you're older it just sounds kinda dirty."

- Dave Matthews @ the Grammy's