note: if some images aren't showing up, try to refresh the page, idk what's up.

Can I just say that someday in my life I better not feel like this. I can hardly remember the last time I didn't, atleast for an extended period of time... it's been like, freaking years I think. ugh.

The Winter Ball crap will not end. I know I expected this and everything, but still. Guys, a little sensitivity would be great. It would be wonderful if they would decide whether to include me in it at all or just leave me out completely. Really, either is fine, just don't talk about all the things you've done/are going to do together in front of me all the time and then never invite me along, ever. I mean I would understand if they didn't want to ask me to help them pick out jewelry or do their makeup because they don't want to rub it in my face. But... ha. Like any of them have anywhere near that amount of considerate-ness in them. But is it really fucking necessary to literally cut me out of the circle because I'm not a part of it? Apparently.

And then today at lunch Michele and Kelsie didn't show up. Hmmm. I'm totally sure they went to get Starbucks or something together... what the hell. Kelsie is supposed to meet me after 3rd period anyway. I'm such a loser waiting there for her when she'd already left w/o me and having to pee so bad but not wanting to ditch her. askldfjasdkl.

And did I mention that about every 15 seconds Michele finds it necessary to move over to Kelsie and like hold her hand or hug her arm or something? Awesome. I know exactly what she's doing... trying to "steal" Kelsie away from me... which is fucking fine because I'm not that lame. That's practically Michele's M.O. since forever. She's such a bitch about it too... oh well.

And hey, cool that throughout this all I'm already working on Kelsie's 18th birthday present even though it's not until the end of April.

Nobody would ever do that for me. Funny. Wait, not funny.

Otherwise I'm working on ideas for the whole weightloss thing but I'll post that up later...

Rory (Alexis Bledel - Gilmore Girls) is in the new Less Than Jake video. She looks really cute... you can go here, click on the square, then click on any of the cards, then click on "flip this," then click "watch the video." You would've figured it out anyway.

"And so
Annie waits, Annie waits, Annie waits
For a call
From a friend
The same
It's the same
Was it always the same?
Annie waits for the last time ...
Just the same as the last time ...
Annie says 'You see this is why I'd rather be alone.'

- Ben Folds "Annie Waits" Rockin the Suburbs