Things are pretty good, considering it's finals week & all. I'm not the type to really freak out about something like a test though... It's more that it's just kind of a pain actually taking the damn things, lol.

Anyway, I really can't wait for this whole winter dance thing to be over with... Basically I don't even really care that I'm not going, so that's not the issue. I mean first of all, I think it would only be fun with a boyfriend or a really good guy friend. And I pretty much don't have either option considering my only really good guy friend is, well, 27 (& teaches)... And of course I don't have a boyfriend, so. Then second of all, I know this is really sad, but I desperately wouldn't want to go (like to dinner & hanging out after the dance etc.) with my group of friends, especially if I wasn't with a boyfriend or Jerry. I know that's terrible, but every time I'm around all of them at one time I hate every second of it. Mostly because of Erin & the way she makes everyone else act around her. And how she doesn't think I'm really a part of her "inner circle" or whatever. Yeah, they're not fun as a group. Well to me atleast. Whatever. I really couldn't care less about it, despite all this crap.

Ew, high school, ew! College is in how many months??

The new Real World is pretty good. It's kinda weird watching it & being there at the same time, you know? I mean I don't actually live downtown or anything, but I've definitely been on the piers by their house and in the Gaslamp Quarter (where all the clubs they go to are)... it's cool, makes me appreciate San Diego I guess. :) And Randy is very cute. Other guy not so much. Southern girl is pretty, boat-phobic one is kinda what the hell, boob job girl is kinda tacky and whorish... yeah.

Jess is coming back to Gilmore Girls in 2 weeks!!! I'm freaking psyched, I <33 Jess so much. So hot. mmm

I saw the Train "When I Look to the Sky" video the other day... I already love that song (esp. because of the "and every dance on the kitchen floor" line, *sigh*), and I swear that is just my fantasy... except for the whole breakup/death? theme... and not with the Train guy necessarily... but it's just this couple living together and kissing on the countertops and laying in bed reading the paper together and having a faucet water fight and running in the rain and dancing in the kitchen... And there's black and white photographs which I love too. I don't know, it makes me crave a boyfriend though. You can watch it at vh1.com if you are curious.

" One last kiss one only
Then I'll let you go
Hard for you I've fallen
But you can't break my fall
I'm broken don't break me
When I hit the ground...
You said always and forever
Now I believe you baby
You said always and forever
Is such a long and lonely time
Too drunk and still drinking
It's just the way I feel
'It's alright'
Is what you told me
'Cause what we had was so beautiful
Feel heavy like floating
At the bottom of the sea..."

- Dave Matthews "Some Devil" Some Devil