Well. It's 10:30 am and I am already back from my little New Years sleepover. I woke up before everyone else and just sat there for like 2 hours listening to snoring and finally was like... OH MY GOD get me out of here, so I woke Michele up and got my stuff and went home. I feel kinda lame for doing that, I mean I wasn't rude about it or anything, but still.

But basically it was keeping with the theme of the night... ugh. So I get over there a little before 9:30 (when I was told to come) and Nicole & Kelsie are already there. I'm like... okay, how long have you been here? And apparently Kelsie & Michele had been hanging out for awhile earlier or something and then Nicole for whatever reason came early too. So it was kinda like they wanted me to be the last one there or something. Whatever. And then we did nothing for like an hour... literally, nothing. And then Nicole wanted to go to this party, so we went, and it was sooo retarded. There were like maybe 15 people there, totally drunk. Okay none of us drink (except maybe Nicole, but I wouldn't know), so what the hell were we doing there? And then people were smoking pot outside I guess, and this guy and his girlfriend were having sex upstairs... awesome...

I kept thinking how I would so much rather be watching my brother's battle of the bands thing. Or even sitting at home watching MTV like I usually do. And then that made me feel like the most boring person on earth, which I probably am. And then I started like, resenting my friends. I don't know what's wrong with me! I guess I'm still on that 'cause I left early or whatever... I don't know, I just don't care at all.

But I guess that's really not the best idea, abandoning them and all, 'cause it would probably be worse if I just had no friends. But to be completely honest I don't even care that much at the moment. Which again makes me feel incredibly lame...

I hope this isn't what college is going to be like. But it probably will. I'm just not really a party kinda person... and I'm completely turned off to drinking now... ughhh

What kind of person would rather sit at home and watch Friends and read a magazine than go to a party? Uh, me. What kind of person leaves a sleepover early 'cause they woke up 2 hrs before everyone else? Me! What kind of person pretty much never wants to get drunk or be around drunk people? Yeah. I'm so pathetic.

Oh well. I do feel completely messed up though. Blah. Nothing sounds fun right now either, I just want to like hang out with my mom. OH my god.

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

- Maroon5 "She Will Be Loved" Songs About Jane