Hi, happy new year! Well not yet, but still. Me, Kelsie & Nicole are all sleeping over at Michele's house. So nothing crazy, but what can you do? Unfortunately I'm still on the whole the O.C. "how you spend New Years is how you spend the rest of the year" thing.

But I should really get over that because 2004 is not going to be exactly like 2003... Really, 2004 is such a major year for me, you know (graduation, college)? - But I think I'm only going to go with the one resolution. Because I wrote out like 17 of them last night, and I was like... okay I strive to do the rest of these everyday... they're already a part of who I am, so I don't need to really stress over them, just keep up what I've been doing so far. (This is stuff like working on the jealousy, being a good friend, etc.)

So, um essentially, the New Years 2004 Resolution is to lose about 25 lbs., and basically to get in shape. And the plan is everyday to be about that. To diet and do pilates & dance and focus a major amount of attention back to getting in shape. Because right now yeah I give a major amount of attention to my weight, but it's just being wasted as I am doing, let's see nothing about it. So I resolve to put all of that energy towards getting in shape.

Oh wait there is one more kinda sub-resolution to that. I'm giving up chips. Because, damn, they are soooo freaking horrible for you, and I have like zero restraint when it comes to them.

I don't really expect that one to last forever, but atleast for a few months I guess. :)

How soft a whisper can get
When your're walking through a
Crowded space
I hear every word being said
And I remember that everyday
I get a little bit closer to you

How long an hour can take
When you're staring into open space
When I feel I'm slipping further away
I remember that everyday
I get a little bit closer to you

These are the days
That I won't get back
I won't hear you cry
Or hear you laugh
And when it's quiet
And i don't hear a thing
I can always hear you breathe

You know there's nowhere else
I've wanted to be
Than be there when you needed me
I'm sorry too
But don't give up on me
And just remember that when you were asleep
I got a little bit closer to you

- the Wallflowers "Closer to You" Red Letter Days

I don't usually put an entire song in but it's just the whole thing is perfect... and when I heard the "nowhere else I've wanted to be..." part I literally started crying, which was unexpected. It reminds me alot of someone :)