Well it's Christmas Break, finally, I guess. I feel so weird, I keep thinking I should do my homework today so I don't have to worry about it later. But I literally have no homework. That has pretty much never happened... last year I had to write a 26 page essay on Twain over break... Loving the Senior thing. :)

Anyway, it's so funny because this break has always been (since freshman yr atleast) a little bit being depressed about missing my (teacher) guy. And I will. Probably always, but I'm really fine w/ that. He's so cute, he came over to talk to me at lunch 'cause two weeks was the longest he could stand not to see me for & he didn't want it be longer (ha yeahhh right). This is all so lame and boring to everyone else, I know, but, okay understand that I have loved this guy for almost 4 years now. And that back in freshman year, if he said "hi" once to me in the hall I would be thrilled for a week. I had no idea that we would become good friends and looking back... it's nice :)

I seriously can't get this past episode of The O.C. out of my head (I know, wow... yeah I am really loser-ing it up here tonight) - but it was just the whole thing about the kiss at midnight and "how you spend New Years Eve is how you'll spend the rest of the year" which I realize doesn't have to be true, but technically being that I have never kissed anyone at midnight (or in general.. blah), it has proved true for me in the past. And that's not cool. And 2004 is major for me, right? It's the year I graduate! I want it to be different and cool and exciting. I want a kiss at midnight. I already have to go thru Christmas alone. Then it'll be New Year's alone. Then Valentine's Day. It's really a wonder I stick around at all. (Kidding).

But I think that would just be the best thing for me right now - a kiss at midnight. Yeah... I don't know...

I'm really considering going all out for CHANGE this whole Christmas Break/New Years thing. Considering I really have nothing else that I have to do. I'm going to really think about that...

"That may be all I need...
In darkness she is all I see.
Come and rest your bones with me...
Driving slow on Sunday morning,
And I never want to leave."

- Maroon 5 "Sunday Morning" Songs About Jane

getting the CD for xmas, finally! can't wait at all... <33 they opened for JM @ the concert last summer...