Hi guys, it has been forever, huh? I guess I've just been busy w/ school & whatever, nothing real major to update about either. The diet's not going so well. And I haven't done pilates for like a week. :( I don't really know what's going on... blah so hard & I went about it all wrong. I just have to come up with something realistic. I love how it's freaking almost Thanksgiving too. Damn. But atleast that means like a month till Christmas <33 Have I mentioned that I adore Christmas? ;)

So anyway, this week has been pretty good. Michele and I have been doing really, really well, like the "good old days" almost, lol. I love not having that stress. The only thing I wish is that we did stuff together outside of school, or atleast talked on the phone more. I guess I have to take the initiative there. I think I will, too.

And then today... well I don't know if any of you have put it together, or even care to, but in my 101+ things and in past entires I have sorta talked about this guy that I love (but up till now didn't give full on details, but now I figure if anyone I know finds this, I'm done anyway, so I might as well spill it all)...

Basically if you put all the pieces together I had this teacher 9-10th grade & TA'd for him in 11th, and we just became really great friends, super close 'cause we have basically everything in common, & he's the sweetest guy in the world and thinks I'm amazing... our families are both from the Midwest (actually same states) and we have the exact same taste in music, recommend/lend eachother CDs, etc. We used to spend every break period in his room talking, and pretty much got eachother through high school (he started teaching here when I started going here). So pretty much he's my best guy friend, and I'm basically sure he's the only guy who thinks I'm as smart and sweet and funny as he tells me. So I love him to death. And did I mention he's 27 years old and gorgeous. He's the sexiest man I have ever met... he's like unreal movie star hot. Tall, dark hair & eyes, great body, cutest smile. He's just, yeah, wow. Literally girls would get jealous when he came over at lunch and talked & joked with me for a few minutes.

But he has a girlfriend back home and the whole love/lust thing is just me I'm sure, hehe. (I wish!) Just to be clear. But I love him. Seriously. I want the guy, I'm sure he knows, but it's fine. :)

So anyway, today I saw him at lunch and he kinda invited me to a concert. eee! It's just a guitar player guy, I'm probably (uh, def.) not going to go 'cause it wasn't like, "Allie (his name for me) will you go to this concert w/ me?" But. I thought it was cool. :) I miss him, I'm not TA'ing again till next semester, so I don't get to see him as much.

Anyway, geez is it obvious I like the guy? Could I ramble more? ... Uh, so I am going to dye my hair this week! I have finally gotten the courage to dye it brown. (it's blonde now). I'm a natural blonde but lately it's been growing in darker & I have some highlights that I am sick of & the color that's growing in is kinda ugly dishwatery dull brownish. For like the past year I have really wanted to pull a Britney and dye it brown (but hopefully keep it for longer than a week!) but I get so nervous like I can't go back or something, I don't know. But I really just want some change, mix it up a bit, see what it's like. If I hate it I'll dye it back a prettier blonde, no big deal :) right? eee. But I think my appointment is on Monday. It's really not that big of deal, I just want like a nice golden brown. Whatever. I'm just obsessing :)

I got the new Britney CD. It's pretty good, I really like "Toxic" and "Everytime." I wish we could do "Toxic" for our dance performance but we're doing this lame song and the dance kinda sucks so far. Oh welllll.

The O.C. was awesome this week, Seth is freaking hilarious with the yams & Mr. Oats etc. etc. <333

I'll update more often, I promise :) (whole week off for Thanksgiving! yeah)

"I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my 'sorry'...
And every time I try to fly I fall
Without my wings I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And every time I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby."

- Britney Spears "Everytime" In the Zone