I am so scared you guys. I am just getting out of control here... all I think about is food and eating and regrets.

I am just realizing how everything is just going to be a series of regretting in my life if I don't do something about this. I won't get a boyfriend this year, I won't go to the Prom, and for the rest of my life I will have never gone to my Senior Prom, and how can I go through life like that?

I know it's so far away and everything, but Homecoming is in a month and that's not going to happen. Why should anything else be any different? Why?

I don't know what I am going to do.

I would say this is all going to change starting tomorrow, but that scares me too, because you can literally count how many times I have already said that here before. I'll update this later when I have some... clarity or something