You know, I don't know why I am so uptight sometimes. Why can't I just let things go? Why do I have to take things so personally & so seriously sometimes?

I'm working on that, though, from now on. I am going to have to try to just be open and happy and not care so much about what everybody else thinks or does. Just be content with myself & secure enough so that I don't always have to get validation from other people. I have to work on not caring if I'm not someone's favorite, or if Kelsie talks to other friends sometimes instead of me all the time. It's not going to affect our being bff, (ha) because that is something solid and real.

Me being more laid back and fun about friends will make me a better one, definitely.

I can do this. It's fine. I'll go to the dance and not worry about everybody else, just have fun with everyone & not be possessive about Kels or whatever.

I really just have to do this in general. Let everybody else deal with the drama. I so do not want to be the girl who is so insecure that she always feels left out... aka not fun to be around! I will make the best out of it all & go with that. No more jealousy. :)

The diet's going great, I'm just trying to keep it going. I don't know. Nothing's too exciting or dramatic (yay) @ the moment.

I have to come up with a crazy outfit for the dance though... I'm thinking something 80s Madonna, or just 80s in general. This one has to be the best of the past 2 years. I have this problem where I am so organized & neat that I have an issue w/ being mismatched, but that is sooo not where I should be for this! Think neon, spandex, fishnets, sequins, etc. haha

I am so in love with Heavier Things and John Mayer in general. I know I say this everyday but the CD is so damn good I can't get over it! And now for the thousandth day in a row of a JM quote!.. (you love it)

"I called
Because
I just
Need to feel you on the line
Don't hang up this time
And I know it was me who called it over but
I still wish you'd fought me 'til your dying day
Don't let me get away."

- John Mayer "Split Screen Sadness" Heavier Things