If nothing else, I just have to say that Heavier Things is perfect.

But basically, I don't know what to do with myself. Crazy but the only thing I feel like I can count on 100% right now (incl. me) is music. Everything seems so prone to be undependable or faltering. My friends, my weight, all of it.

Michele is such a pain... this whole confidence thing is freakin annoying, lol. You can just always tell that she thinks she looks really hot or something, even though I think she generally looks like she's trying way too hard... Please God never let her see this ('cause it totally gives her away) but she's been wearing freaking high heels to school practically everyday. I mean it would be fine if she had a really cute pair and wore it once, kinda tounge-in-cheek-y, you know? But she has all these random pairs, and it just seems so "I want to be cool! Does this make me cool?!" or something... I think they make her feel older and more superior to everybody. She must love that, huh?

Oh and now I'm highly doubting she lost any weight. And it really just seems like she thinks she's cooler than the rest of the group because she's also "friends" with Nicole's friends (I would say it's more she's leeching on them, but that's just me).

But I am not mad at her, it's not something I would bring up or anything. I just think I've outgrown our friendship. What the hell, I gave it a shot, didn't work out, get over it. I doubt she'll even call me once this year, so I'll just see her at school, be nice, and rejoice in the fact that this is pretty much the last year I ever have to spend around her. yay college.

I need to lose weight.

"Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too."

- John Mayer "Daughters" Heavier Things