So I don't know if I'm going to start updating regularly again or anything, but I don't think I want to completely abondon this diary... yet? Atleast not without some kind of conclusion... Anyway, it's just that I feel so different now, like I'm not the same girl who wrote every entry in here up until now anymore, you know?

In the past two months, since I left for college, so much has happened. It's changed and I've changed and I don't know... Now that I'm back (for Thanksgiving break) I just feel like if two months ago I would've told myself this is how it was going to turn out I wouldn't have believed it...

In the past two months I have lost about 15 pounds, found a solid group of friends that I love, and I actually have a boyfriend(!) who is so cute and who I just adore, and hope hope hope things really work out with :)

So I guess those are the three most important things going on with me right now! And the three most important things that were really missing for me over the past year or so... being happy with my body (I still want to lose like 10 more, but still!) And actually having a group of friends that I can trust and depend on and who I feel so comfortable and like, secure with? Oh my gosh. You have no idea! And then... he just makes me very happy... we were friends first (for like a month) and we're always going to be friends, no matter what happens... and the best part of us is the friendship anyway. Well that and the making out part. Just kidding, we haven't even really kissed yet ;) Just forehead and cheek so far... he's getting closer atleast! Have I mentioned we're taking it slow? ha

Alright well enough gushing about the boyfriend, it's only been like a week since our first date/him asking me to be his girlfriend and I'm really insecure (shocker, right?) so, you know, I figure he's probably going to break up with me soon anyway... kinda kidding... I'm really trying not to screw this up though... :)

Okay so I want to list a few moments from the past couple months that I don't want to ever forget:

1. me and one of my roommates getting our "dance party" shut down (the funniest and most embarassing moment ever, ever)
2. my first date! he got all dressed up for me and took me to dinner, holding my hand/opening doors/telling me how pretty i looked... he did it perfectly :)
3. ...and then he called me my roommate's name (i so loved it tho)
4. when he asked me to be his girlfriend. it was so wonderful and awkward and sweet and i will never forget it :)
5. watching SNL and friends and ellen and going to "our place" downtown and playing catchphrase and getting dressed up and my roommate falling when we're not supervising her and happy face stickers and dying alone and road trips and the beach in the rain and jcrew and constant quoting and miguel and ankle fetishes and love quadrilaterals and ice cream cones and christening one's manhood and shopping withdrawal and men of the week and my boyfriend's roommate telling me to "shut up so i can tell you you're hot!" and the three levels of being a guy and miniature horses and our cute house! and my bf telling me "that's just because you're hot... they wouldn't do it if you were ugly" and sleeping with little men and fake adidas and guys clothes and... being really happy :)